it's never too late

a few hours before classes start this year, i'm still up and my head's somewhere else. i can't even sit still and try to read my theo notes.. i have later to do that. i guess i can't allow myself to sleep without letting all the bad vibes go. i don't show it but i am hella scared of 2008. i need to graduate this year, i've slacked off enough. college is almost over and i don't feel fulfilled or satisfied and i hunger for a bigger world. i can't wait for new adventures. i had a craptastic start this 2nd sem, and i plan to change that, my subjects are still A-able (*crosses fingers). i also can't wait to leave, i hope things work out, actually i pray that they do. i admit my past few years were filled with what ifs, things i never risked, stuff i was to scared to do something about. and i know all that's gonna change. yes, i know. this year i wanna risk all and take every chance i get, i don't wanna look back and say i could have done something about that, i don't have to 'cause i would have already done something. :p seriously, it'll be a year of change, mentally, emotionally, socially and even physically. i'm done with settling, i'm pushing myself to the limit. i shouldn't just be exisiting, i should be LIVING. this is gonna be my last night blogging on what could have been or how craptastic my past years were... no new resolutions, just a better me. fresh start. new life. one step at a time. it's never too late to catch up, change things and dream as big as i could. by 2009 i'll be saying that 2008 has been the best yet. i hope :)