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13-ish days til 2011

Ok, so i cheated with the photo memory thing and i have excuses,

(1) because I'm a med student and (2) because i'm forgetful :)

I'm excited for a new year ahead and i really hope i don't get setbacks this time around....Anyhoo in remembrance of 2010, Here's what i have left:

day 18. a photo of one of your classes

day 19. a photo of you on a school trip

day 20. a photo of something you enjoy doing

day 21. a photo of you standing up

day 22. a photo of your town

day 23. a photo of your friend as a baby

day 24. a photo of you that your hair looks nice in

day 25. a photo of a night you loved

day 26. a photo of your favorite weekend

day 27. a photo of last summer

day 28. a photo of what you ate today

day 29. a photo of someone you find attractive

day 30. a photo of you when you were happy.

Day 17 - Drunk Me

Wait a minute, but i don't get drunk hahaha.... er anymore :P

AND i don't have drunk pictures, i take drunk pictures of other people. I think.

This is me tipsy - 'cause hey i'm still smiling :) Plus i don't remember this pic being taken.

Day 16 - Party

Here's the thing, thanks to med school I don't go to parties as often. And the last party i went to I arrived really really late.

So here's a picture of one of the last parties i went to, a friend's birthday celeb at Izakaya, not necessarily the last, but the last one i had a picture in haha. :)

Day 15 - A Photo of Me with someone i love

Just so i'm not boyfriend-crazed ;)

Seriously though, i gotta pay homage to my dad, who's one of a kind really :) He's a great friend, a food trip buddy, a pastor and photographer, and yet he's my dad :) And I love him, and he'll always be the first man i loved :)

(Yes that'll make him happy haha :D)

Day 14 - My Favorite Family Member

My other best friend, my counselor, my prayer buddy, cooking buddy and sometimes shopping buddy, and most of all my mom :)

Day 13 - Best Friends

For Jei,

I miss you and I can't wait to see you again plus meet your husband, hopefully before i have a nephew or niece ;) Love Yah!

For Cyndee, i miss our all day girly dates with spa shopping and never-ending kwentos, i hope you're doing ok and i'll see you soon yay!

For Karlo, can't wait for a non-study date! :)

Day 12 - Photo of Me

Again, the "Han face"

Actually, it does look so much like the expression i had as a baby. (See Day 10)

Day 11 - Favorite Film

I have so many favorite films that i can't really pick just one... So this movie is actually one i want to watch again because i no longer remember the story.

I remember fragments and moments because apparently i watched this as a little girl, and i'm hoping i get to see it again.

Day 10 - Me as a baby

The "Han Face" according to my friends.

Day 9 - My Family

This is my favorite family picture ever, I think it was taken two years ago :)

Day 7 - A photo of someone I love :)

It's the birthday of my special someone today.

And i'm a gift giver. Haha. I went all out shopping yesterday for gifts that had to have meaning :) And i'm so grateful that i pulled that one off. :)

Another year's ending, which is why i'm doing this photo memory thing. And this year i'm still taken :) who would've thought i could do this commitment thing haha :)

I guess what changed is that i fell in love with my best friend, who already knew my faults, my bitchyness and my weirdness... haha :) And yet we still manage to surprise each other everyday, falling in love with other things that we didn't know about each other. I get it, it's a journey and i'm enjoying it even if there are bumps along the way, and i'm glad i'm on this adventure with him. :)

P.S. I'm skipping day 8 - my favorite band/ musician cause i dont have any :P

More of Photo Memories :)

Day 5 (A Photo of Me) and 6 (A Photo that makes me Laugh)

Day 4 - A photo of the last place you went on holiday

Oh my Gulay, Session Road, Baguio City

Last December with the Family ♥

I miss Baguio already.

And i miss salads.

Voyage of the Dawn Treader - Day 3 of Photo Memories

When the facebook thing about cartoon profile pics started (to prevent childhood violence, which i hope was true and that i really helped) i actually had a hard time picking a picture, the first cartoon i picked was fushigi yuugi (curious play) which i watched when i was already in high school and recently i finally settled on a cartoon i watched as a kid.

When I explained my first choice for a cartoon profile pic to my dad, he said it's probably 'cause my childhood was spent reading books instead of watching tv, yes the closet nerd in me. And just a few hours ago, i watched a big part of my childhood come to life on screen, Narnia's The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, my favorite book ever as a child, probably even until now.

As a kid, i would hide in my closet wishing i'd end up in narnia or stare at paintings with weird boats even if i couldn't swim. It was an escape for me when i felt scared or sad. Growing up and rereading all 7 chronicles of Narnia, i remember what Aslan said to Lucy and Edmund when they left Narnia, that he was called many names and that in our world they had to get to know him too.

I think I know my Aslan, which ended my hiding in closets and staring at paintings. So when i get scared, sad and i feel like escaping, i take my rest in the "Aslan" of our world. I still read the Voyage of the Dawn Treader from time to time and it still makes me happy. And even if the movie was not close to how i imagined that adventure in my head, i still loved every single moment of it. The dufflepods, Coriakin, Ramandu's island, and Eustace. It was like I met with my childhood friends again :)

Anyway, Day 3 - A photo that makes me happy :)

Day 2 of Photo Memories :)

Photo of myself a year ago.

At YakiMix with the boyfriend, celebrating his 23rd :)

Day 1 of Photo Memories

My Facebook Profile Pic :)

Taken on my 23rd birthday :)

will do this starting december 1 :)

A tribute to the last month of 2010 :) [got this from pao's tumblr - julianparaiso.tumblr.com]

day 1. your facebook profile photo

day 2. a photo of yourself a year ago

day 3. a photo that makes you happy

day 4. a photo of the last place you went on holiday

day 5. a photo of you

day 6. a photo that makes you laugh

day 7. a photo of someone you love

day 8. a photo of your favourite band/musician

day 9. a photo of your family

day 10. a photo of you as a baby

day 11. a photo of your favourite film(s)

day 12. a photo of you

day 13. a photo of your best friend(s)

day 14. a photo of one of your favourite family members

day 15. a photo of you and someone you love

day 16. a photo of you at the last party you went to

day 17. a drunk photo of you

day 18. a photo of one of your classes

day 19. a photo of you on a school trip

day 20. a photo of something you enjoy doing

day 21. a photo of you standing up

day 22. a photo of your town

day 23. a photo of your friend as a baby

day 24. a photo of you that your hair looks nice in

day 25. a photo of a night you loved

day 26. a photo of your favorite weekend

day 27. a photo of last summer

day 28. a photo of what you ate today

day 29. a photo of someone you find attractive

day 30. a photo of you when you were happy.

dear grilled cheese

i want you.

oh no...

me thinks i have brain damage. Thanks to Numbers 1, 2, 4, 5, 6, 8 and sometimes 7.

But doesn't that mean that all med students have brain damage.

So what does that say about today's doctors. haha :)

reality.

it's hard to try and trudge on when things are getting hard. especially when i have a quit switch. med school is killing me, and life in general is.

i'm revamping my outlook and trying to focus on the good stuff :)

will try and see how that goes.

For You, I'm sorry :*

i'll keep my promise.

no quitting :)

i found that someone who'll food trip with me in the wee hours of the night for banchetto, or to have random food cravings like outback, aysee or omakase. and that someone who'll cook lucban longganisa for me and give me vinegar even if he hates the smell of it.

i found that someone i can comfortably make random annoying sounds with.

i found that someone who'll jeep to starbucks to study with me even if he doesn't have to, and be patient when i people watch and be strict when i have to study.

Even when i get stressed, or feel bipolar ;) I still want to have you around with me forever, cause i am the craziest, happy version of myself with you, and like you, i can no longer imagine living life otherwise.

I love you, even if i'll always be a head over heart person ;)

follow the head, not the heart

random

set a goal: to look hot in my red dress again :)

hopefully in 2 months..

'nuff said :)

Trying my best to sleep by 12 midnight :)

From Nov 9 -19.. This is me.

i'm not an insomniac

i just like staying awake at night, when it's quiet and peaceful...

but during the day...

this is not good when school starts!

i think medschool made me lose my muchness

Coffee and Love Drunk

Six Years and 200+ posts ago, i started college, not knowing what to expect and where i really wanted to end up, back then i thought that by now i would have everything figured out. And i was wrong. I have changed, i like to believe i grew up, my perspectives and beliefs may have changed too. But i'm still that person who fears the unknown more than heights, or dark, or death. :) Although i may have found my peace with many things, like my Faith, and also my acceptance of love... there are other things i'm still scrambling over, and i'm still picking up the pieces of my own life puzzle, making sure everything fits.

I've been in my twenties for three years now, and i figured, a change was due :) It may seem small to change a blog name or a twitter name, but for me it's big. It's me growing up to be a woman i didn't see myself becoming 6 years ago. Stronger yet less optimistic, cheezier yet more resilient, jaded yet in love.

Coffee and Love drunk, that's me in med school. And probably the me i will continue to be until i get my MD-MBA. Hyped up, strong, energetic, passionate, and in love, not just with Karlo, or God, or my family but also with life. :)

A new era begins :)

lack of sleep makes me cheezy :P

p.s. you are the only exception :)

...

love save the empty...

save me..

being sentimental.

my usual post holy week routine would be clean up my room and get rid of clothes i no longer use (or those that no longer fit :| ouch.)

as usual the hard part was the "throwing away." i got rid of a bunch of "teacher clothes" from my closet from my substitute teacher days. i had to throw all bat boy tickets that i had still stashed from my FOH days for BlueRep. I had to throw old movie tickets and receipts, because i don't even remember what was special about them. so now that my bookshelf is refilled with med books and trans, i've realized i've gone a long way. from trying theater, trying to teach... i like to believe i didn't fail with those two.. it's just that i realized, i'm here where i always wanted to be. :)

getting rid of all those things after one very very tiring and stressful school year helped me gain perspective. i'll give up less now, strive to do better, and hopefully even excel. the plan is to "Struggle as hard as i can for something i believe in." and imma start with giving my all for head and neck removals. haha.

problem is after next year's holy week, i probably wouldn't even know what to throw. :)

Real Life Fairytale - Plumb

You ran around inside my head
When you passed out, I felt dead
And I realized you make me live
And when my world starts to cave in, you jump inside and take my hand
No matter where, you are there
Will I ever see, what you could see in me? I do, I just believe that we will always be and dream, yeah
Well, I will never be the sign that we must see, that you and me were meant to be so just believe why we are together
You are my light, you are my star, you are my sunshine and my dark
You are the everything I dreamed about
You are the guy who stole my heart
I am the girl you're always smiling for
We have a love people dream about
A real life fairytale
I thought that I would be alone
You caught my eye and I was home
And I realized that this was love
I see the world through different eyes
I look at you by my side
No matter where, you're always there
Will I ever see what you could see in me? I do, I just believe that we will always be and dream, yeah
Well, I will never be the side that you will see, that you and me were meant to be so just believe why we are together
You are my light, you are my star
You are my sunshine and my dark
You are the everything I dreamed about
You are the guy who stole my heart
I am the girl you're always smiling for
We have a love people dream about
Dream with me, make me believe that this is a real life fairytale!
You are my light, you are my star
You are my sunshine, and my dark
You are the everything I dreamed about!
You are the guy who stole my heart
I am the girl you're always smiling for
We have a love people dream about
A real life fairytale
A real life fairtytale
A real life fairytale

First Lesson Learned for 2010 :)

THERE IS NOTHING IN A CATERPILLAR THAT TELLS YOU IT'S GOING TO BE A BUTTERFLY.