"post stress syndrome"

i had one of my long nights where sleep wasn't involved. and it's 5:20 in the morning and i haven't slept. to top it all off i have a report today! how shitty would i feel i wonder. haha. and yet i know i needed this night. silence. and the continuous whirring of thoughts in my head. one step at a time, i was able to finish three tasks at hand. step 1 = thesis ... step 2 = econ project ... step 3 = com report.

besides that, i was able to pour things out to "bean" and for that, THANK YOU. especially the talk a few nights ago. and i was able to say sorry to jellone. :) (ninjas yah hear that?)

right at this moment, nothing seems to bother me. my mom's coming home on june 2 and i can't wait! but we'll be leaving next year, and our papers would be fixed starting january. but we'll still wait for God's word on that. but somehow i know deep inside that everything has just fallen in place.

so for now, i'm de-stressed ... and i feel fine. and well i've craved for this peace after stress for a while. and i'm ok that i got it now. so there. hoping for a fine weekend =) and for any other stress factors to come... i'm ready!

one of those days

it's one of those days where you wish you never fell in love
or that you didn't leave your head in the clouds
one of those days where you have no idea where your brain's at
and have a perfectly clear place for your heart
no matter how many times you wish you won't have a day like this
you always do
and then in the end, it feels great that it's one of those days

how friends cause you to break

forget that YOU have feelings and place their feelings above all else before even looking at themselves. and risk hurting you in the process.

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
Don't think that I care
I'm not over you yet
And I don't want to be am tired of being your friend

I'm tired.stressed.irritated. at least allow me to vent.