3am and still awake..

I BLAME STARBUCKS!!!!
on the bright side... i only have three stickers to go.. :D

my perfect date..

i always said that for a date all i needed was pizza and a movie.. but now that i'm thinking about it, i guess that's not really what i want.. i never even had a real date i think.. i don't know maybe i just can't remember. haha. the last time someone asked me out on a date, well it failed miserably... SO i guess, when asked what i really wanted to do on a date i should have answered, "let's go to tagaytay" hahaha :) i admit it probably isn't first date material BUT it's a perfect way to get to know the person.. hmmm.. so the itinerary would be: lunch at mushroom burger to um break the ice haha or any resto that overlooks taal instead :) , and then coffee at starbucks or better yet Bag O' Beans (i seriously need to remember how to get there), and he'll buy me flowers somewhere there (yeah, i kinda like flowers now don't care if they wilt :P), and i'll buy him a pie or something hahaha. seriously now.. we'd then have dinner at sonya's garden.. but a spa thing right before and a stroll in the garden as well with the whole getting to know thing in mind.. see perfect? hahaha. well maybe it's a lil too much and that's probably because it's been too long and it's hella boring at night u know :P i'm just saying that the next time around, i'm gonna do it right... no beating around the bush, pakipot crap, oh we're talking about me so i meant bitchy crap, or the whole being in a hurry thing or being mean and i said that already haha.. i guess what i'm saying is this time imma savor the moments... even if we don't end up together right? 'coz dates should be fun to talk about and not seem painful or embarassing when one looks back... OH and i just can't wait for that date story worth telling.. even though it doesn't happen in tagaytay :)

your voice was the soundtrack of my summer..

and do u know you're unlike any other?
and how i wish you make your move and take a hint.
hoping u think of the same things, and wish for me too.
i don't want to get tired of waiting for you.

is secretly wishing

that my current version of prince charming will sweep me off my feet. :) and that it's gonna be for real because i've been done playing for quite a while now.. so when will i ever have some kind of fairytale on love? and i know this is happening now coz life is too stagnant...too quiet...too uncertain. and on my search for certainty i find myself weirdly attracted to falling in love with a prince who has a big heart and a reassuring smile. AND yet i know i'm never gonna marry him so what's wrong with a for now? the fact that it's mean. haha. sooo i now don't know where i'm going with this.. but one thing's sure gonna change, i'm gonna stop with the NOs and the quick criticisms about the littlest things.. i think i need to start seeing boys now.. hahaha. AND not in boys night outs or food trips, but friendly dates and crap. haha still can't say that straight.. but i will try dialling down the meanness, and the "i hate men 'tude" and start exercising.. yes, that's part of the plan.. haha :) and that's that.

if only passion is all it takes.

i still haven't gotten over that MCAT thing i have to admit. i really thought i'd do good. and now i have to continue with all the application shit, yes i haven't mailed anything and that's bad. oh and i can't even look at my gmail, since WES and DUKE-NUS keep e-mailing to remind me and stuff. AT LEAST i already passed my NMAT application and i feel that my drive to study's coming back. i guess i'm not really good at roadblocks... and failures affect me now more than before. BUT it all boils down to the fact that i still want to be a doctor. i know i keep saying i could've been this or that and my super immature drive to be famous... haha. but i just really wanna be Dra. Hannah Arce in 5 years or so. I really hope it's for me. and now i have to get back to studying.. Monday's back to reality for me. goodbye emo crap and now it's seriously time to move on. :)

oh and on a totally unrelated note, I still AM A GIRL, and i still gush over the silly not really romantic stuff... and yeah, your voice was the soundtrack of my summer. here goes nothing *wink :)