goodnight

goodnight
and please let the bed bugs bite
so i'd be up all night
thinking of what's wrong and right
knowing that i'd get no kiss goodnight
'cause you're out of mind and sight
although you're still in my heart tonight
and loving you has always been right

as i hug my pillow tight
dreaming of peaceful delight
i wish your love would hold you tight
and tell you how it will be all right
'cause if you don't let me love you tonight
i'll be alright with knowing that your love
will be kissing you good night

weekend

thanks L2 (cyndee dear, steven :p , iea!!, gela!!, harm :), paoLo, bJorn, and marts!!) for aLL the fun we had from gweilo's to pho hoa and then to absinth.. :p looove to parteeeh with yoU guYs... we'll do that aGain sometime..

berto..soorrrreeee...di ko na napanood..pero i heard u guys naman eh..(from outside) good as aLways!! naxx.. hehe :)

thaNks geLo for the discount in absiNth.. hehe.. paOLa?! PCD over me??? hahaha.. joke.. miss you pa rin!! acooooy!! baket?! haha.. magipon ka na..alis tayo next time.. shoti?! di ka manlang ngparamdam eh.. ano un?

and yeeessss ateneO bLue eaGLes (the bball team) i loooooove you aLL.. karlo!! manood na tayo uaap ano baaaaa! hahaha...

sooo....dampa sa libis na.. gotta go.. pig out moments.. and the diet will come soon.. nyahaha..

i looove long weekends... thank you st. ignatius *wink

on leaving

the airport is a place of welcoming, reconciliation, great big hugs and yet also a place for goodbyes...

probably one of the worst things i've gone through in life was to see my bestfriend enter the airport without knowing when or how we'll ever see each other again.. and the thing is i didn't cry.. my eyes didn't well up with tears BUT somewhere inside the hurt was so drastic that the tears were probably too weak an expression to just let it go..

and just a few days ago, monday to be exact.. me and my blockmates headed off to the centennial airport to see our beloved gel off to iowa... and i saw them experience the same shit i had to go through when my bestfriend left.. stifling tears, i hugged gel for the last time in 5 years.. yep, i didn't cry again.. i guess tears aren't my thing..
we were actually at the airport for two hours..laughing and doing crazy what nots.. but when that moment came.. the MOMENT where you know a lot of things are gonna be over, a lot of things are gonna change: the goodbye part.. that's when it hits you... crap! goodbye..

and yes we are gonna miss.. or feel the worst.. i remember crying real bad about jei when everything just sinked in.. things may never be the same.. and things can't always turn out the way you planned..

but LEAVING.. makes you realize what you're worth or who's worth it.. leaving brings epiphanies.. leaving brings a fresh beginning.. leaving teaches you to let go.. leaving is one of the best teachers of the century.. and though it hurts like hell when someone does leave, i wish them all the best in the world.. and many more moments to change their lives.. and for happy endings: COME BACK anew..

geL..i'm gonna miss you.. :(

the world can be a bitch

it's late at night and my brain just stopped! not even in midsentence.. it's supposed to be MY time now but i can't seem to work straight.. grrr.. i abhor party aftermaths where you're left daydreaming of how cute and fun the party went.. and then BAM back to reality.. shitty boring school life.. seriousLy! and MondAys sucK!! genetics lab leaves me into tiny bits and pieces of STRESS! annoying!!

but on the bright side.. see there always is.. geL and iea loooved their suprise party last FriDay.. L2 rocks i gotta admit.. we just enjoy throwing those surprises.. the stress was WORTH it! and i'm sure gonna miss geL.. sayang... when all of us where getting close and bonding... haAay.. but i gotta stick to my 'everything happens for a reason' thing.. love yah dear geL... mag-ingat ang iowa sayooo.. hehe :p

so right now? i'm figuring out how to finish this theo reaction paper.. which i can't even start.. fundamental option?! waaah.. well in a while i'll make it.. 3-6 maybe!! hahaha :))

a little secret

it's far easier to give in
than to say no
and just get up and walk away..

it's not a life lesson.. it's the hard irreversible truth..
but when you do get up and walk away
it feels a whole lot better..

so how do i know?
i don't..
i just believe it to be true..
until that someday that i really learn to just keep walking away..

and when i do, i'll tell you all about it..

:)

have you ever had one of these moments...where you just can't stop missing someone, out of nowhere.. and then that someone suddenly passes by your life again? allowing you to get a glimpse.. a little feel of something you missed.. and then when you catch that glimpse and hold it in your heart, the moment dies... and there you are, left with an unwanted glimpse and a burned out heart...

and from there, i'm expected to say, i hate those moments...

well i don't... i love the feeling of missing something and having it just for a little while again.. maybe it's God's way of reminding me that there are things that were worth missing before.. and now i gotta love the fact that things are different.. but we're still allowed to relive those "somethings" or "someones" as crazy and as "in love" as we did before.. just so we know, that even in the darkest of our days, there were times that we laughed, we missed, and we loved..