too many thorns

don't cry little girl, let me hold you
but i will also teach you to let go
hold tight darling, 'cause this may be the last time you do
and in the mirror, stare once again at the face you know

make no mistake of desiring what you already know is wrong
slowly cleanse your hands of the stains of your own blood
let go of the rose that you've been holding for too long
and throw away the thorns as you heal from wounds they've caused

run as fast as the wind blows through your hair
feel the freedom of no sorrows, taste the sweetness of pure delight
leap as high as you could, rest in one's tender loving care
resist remembering the sting of thorns, and please stay with what you feel is right

now to this exquisite lady, finishing my little girl's path
keep in mind all that she has on her own discovered
bask in the glow of her charm and innocence
yet take on life with the wisdom she has rightfully earned

though my little girl has picked too many thorns on the way
let this dear lady cast all the little girl foolishness aside
yes, the girl has left too many scars for the lady not to remember
but the lady should know, that this scars are what made her resilient and strong

tough as my lady may be, please tone down the hardness of my little girl's heart
one could never forget the hurts, but one should learn to break the walls and open doors
learn from them but do not let them hinder you from seeing life beautifully again
hold your hands tight but open them to one able to hold them tighter

take a look at yourself, my once radiant, kind and strong child
and always say to yourself that there can never be too many thorns
there can never be enough to break you and pull you down
because God is always with you,
and you were strong enough to grow into the lady you now are

flashback

"hello pa, guess what i passed chem!!" -moi (during distribution of grades)

it's been quite a while since my last post and i'm on my 2nd week of the 2nd semester.. and so far, so good! yep..that's all i have to say about that.. :)

hahaha..nah..seriously now.. at times when i sit in the cafeteria, eating and checking out my histology book.. listening to the latest gossip on artistas which some of my friends are fond of..or walking in campus, rushing to class while taking time to smell the roses..haha! those times, they're all still surreal to me.. damn, i actually am still in school.. oh but it ain't all perfect.. that 1st sem rocked my world in a really harsh way.. one thing i wouldn't forget.. a time where i actually lost my footing and fell of the stage where i played the lead role..and yeah, i am still finding my way back.. just taking baby steps this time so i won't fall too hard the next time around.. and it's great to know that you have God on your side.. 'cause seriously, if i didn't realize that, i'd be a hopeless piece of crap right now.. and that's bad.. one line that hit me during my debut..something cyndee said about me.. "It will take a lot more than a few setbacks and disappointments to bring her down." for a moment there, i realized that i lost that part of me and this time i'm trying to get it back.. and i think that i'm right on track this time around.. especially when people around me never fail to brighten my days.. :)

i am human

no matter how strong i perceive myself to be
no matter how strong people see me
my resilience, though powerful, is greatly limited
and how quickly i put my guard up can easily be delayed

i try to put a smile on everyone's face
even though deep inside me i have lost all grace
i have fought long and hard enough
still i know i may wind up defeated in the end

i am human and i know it
i can't withstand all pain and risk all things
i want someone to catch me when i fall
when i fly i need someone else's wings

most of the time, i freely give myself
but please still allow me to be self-seeking when i should be
take time to listen as i complain, whine, grumble, and cry
and i would willingly give you my shoulder when you're hurt

believe me when i tell you to
trust me when i need a hand to be held in harsh times
put your hand over my shoulder when i say i'm cold
love me unconditionally, fall for my imperfections

stay by my side even when i don't ask of it
think of my pride as a kid's yearning for an embrace
take me in your arms though i act independent
hold me and tell me you'll never let go

i've realized we aren't meant to be alone
as i saw it through the eyes of those who suffered loss
i fooled myself into thinking i can stand on my own
yet blindly i was leaning on friends who willingly stood with me

i am human and i know it
i get hurt, i suffer loss and i'm meant to get over it
though time took away the pain, i decided to leave the scars there
knowing that someday, they'll remind me of how lucky i may end up to be

i am human and i know it
though insecurities weigh me down and life may 'cause me to falter
somewhere there is someone watching over me
one strong and powerful enough to pull me up no matter how deep down i fall

some of the 18 whispers to the wind.. :)

What car model would han be?

Well.. Obviously, she would be a Lancer MX dark blue with plate number KRS707.. Why? Kasi.. Dahil ky Han nakakarating ako sa aking paroroonan.. nax! She makes me feel safe with her seatbelts and airbags.. Nagkaroon ako ng maraming friends sapagkat maraming tao ang gustong makihitch.. Minsan ay traffic at puro MMDA ang buhay, tinutulungan ako ni Han by giving music/movies for entertainment and super strong horsepower for speedy color-coding getaways.. Her magic tints and airconditioning unit protects me from the harmful rays and heat of the outside world.. She helps me see things in a clear perspective with her automatic soap water spraying thingy and cool wipers.. Her leather reclinable seats make me comfortable when I’m with her.. She even has spacious compartments for all my problems..
Sa totoo lang, Han needs special attention that is why linilinis ko siya kapag siyay marumi and I try to make her a better person by upgrading her parts.. If only we try to understand Han and look deep inside her, my makikita tayong isang nilalang na pangalan ay Bumbong, isang doggy na pinangalan sa putobumbong dahil sa kulay niya which is coincidentally Han’s favorite color..
So Han, I wish you an easy and safe drive in life.. Don’t stop if you encounter road blocks along the way.. Learn to take a detour and continue your journey with God navigating in the passenger seat.. Happy 18^th Birthday Powerpuff! -- Harm

What’s the weather forecast when Hannah is around?

Well, in Hannah-ville, I would have to say that it is mostly sunny with light to moderate winds, rarely cloudy or stormy, resistant to drastic weather changes, with temperatures ranging from 24 to 30 degrees Celsius…just perfect! And I say this because Han possesses this amazing aura that radiates from her wherever she may be. She has been such an inspiration to me and I’m sure to a lot of other people, because of her positive disposition and her insatiable thirst for life. It will take a lot more than a few setbacks and disappointments to bring her down. She lights up a room with her mere presence and creates a warm, inviting atmosphere for everyone.

My dear Hannah, I am so proud you, of the young lady you have become, and of the things that you have accomplished.

My wish tonight is for you to remain a guiding light for your family, your friends, and your loved ones. Maintain the perfect weather in Hannah-ville, because everyone just loves visiting. I pray that you will continue to touch the lives of everyone around you and continue to grow in the Lord. Happy happy 18^th birthday, Sweetie! I love you! = Cyndee =

happy birthday to me

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cheers to a new chapter in my life!! hehe! i'm 18 na and my birthday was well celebrated!!! and at this point in life i know that i'm blessed :) though life may be totally imperfect there are so many things to remind you that it doesn't need to be... as long as it's close enough.. (yes, using floyd's words in his 18 jewels dedication..hehe).. my party was fun pero sayang 'cause a lot of people weren't able to go.. yan ang hirap pag sembreak ang birthday mo.. haha! but it was all good! people were game enough to wear bohemian outfits, even the guys!! thanks so much!! the dedications made by the 18 jewels and the wishes given by the 18 whispers to the wind were all touching.. :) some were really well thought of, galeeeng!!! hehe! thank God i was able to have my debut..everything was totally a blessing.. the centerpieces were free, daming discounted.. grabe! God rocks talaga!! so cheers again to a new journey..hopefully, things will be mostly sunny! :)

ok...so today is Nov. 7, 2005.. gRades and regform distribution in ateneo.. and it turns out, i won't be shifting after all!!! by some miracle i actually passed chem! and i only have one 'person' in mind who is wholly responsible for that.. GOD!!!!!!!!! asteeeeg!!! through this experience i actually learned na he is truly always in control...now i know i'm on the right track so i'm gonna keep going.. but this time i'll do far better...this is my future, something important..it's BIG! so thanks God for giving me another chance!!! so here i go once again!!!! dancing and singing all the way but working hard enough to make it big in this life of mine!