past life

i got curious.. haha. and frankly, if past lives were true, i'm ok with this one.
http://thebigview.com/pastlife/

Your past life diagnosis:

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I don't know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Ukraine around the year 1775. Your profession was that of a leader, major or captain.

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Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Timid, constrained, quiet person. You had creative talents, which waited until this life to be liberated. Sometimes your environment considered you strange.

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The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
It always seemed to you that your perceptions of the world are somewhat different. Your lesson is to trust your intuition as your best guide in your present life.

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Do you remember now?

crap

i can't move my right foot that much.
to make matters worse, i have choreo rehearsals tomorrow.

i haven't finished my physics lab rep! why? 'cause i don't feel like doing it. tsktsk.

i cut class this morning. reason? i overslept.

i reeeaaaally wanna go to warehouse this sat.

i must quit you.

my legs have died

choreo for Sister Act started a while ago and i had no energy left that as soon as i got home i just slumped on the couch and fell asleep. AND i just woke up! i still have so many things to do and shoot, this is going to be my life as long as there are choreo rehearsals. SEE i have this belief that i have two left feet, or maybe just 'cause i started getting fat and i could no longer move. haha. over exaggerating here. i'm just really tired. i slept so much during my five-day weekend, and i guess i wanted it to be a 6-day thing. and i guess i felt weird and "unrecharged" when i didn't even go out or hang with friends or family. i just slept and watched TV and ate popcorn. ack, couch potato me. now i have to get up on my feet again and try and dance. and at least consider it as exercise which would make me think that it's fun. phew. now physics, here i come.

afterthought and incoherence

i was really supposed to write an august 11 post but at the last minute i decided against it. and i forgot about blogging altogether. BUT thanks to this 6-day weekend due to continuous rains, i find myself with lots of time on my hands. BIOnight's finished. and that's the only thing i'm going to say about that. So far i've been doing nothing besides school and rehearsals. and that's basically it. And since wed, i've been doing nothing but eating and sleeping, thank God there were rehearsals yesterday.. and now that it's still raining, and rehearsals were canceled, i've got nothing again. although i did finish editing our multiply site, and i've already done parts of our physics lab report, right now there's just silence, the rain and well youtube.

so where am i right now in life? i'm settling. just basically enjoying what's there and taking things one step at a time. that's about it. AND it's working for me. i no longer get too stressed when there's really so much to do and so little time. and i have more time to give now actually, well we'll see in the future. i'm trying to give up on some bad stuff, i lost my voice already i don't wanna risk anything else. so now what? berries and cream or robot chicken probably. that's how productive my day's going to be. and tomorrow, i'm probably going to finish all my lab reports and have time to fix my room. i guess tomorrow's gonna be better. rain. bah humbug.

dreams.

here i go again with my emo posts.. and i was right, i knew i'm going to write lots of these since it's my last year in college, and that is if i pass all my subjects.. :p

we (Bio girls) had our group photo shoot this morning and right after that, cams said in the bathroom "That was fast, we just smiled and it was over" and i replied "just like college"... and honestly that wasn't true.. somehow i wish it was but NO. the past three years of my life were filled with the biggest up and down shifts ever.. some aren't even academically related. I remembering entering college with the biggest smile ever, and even though i still have that smile pasted on.. its meaning is far different, and i guess i like this smile better. As a freshie, i was just happy to be in college and to be in ADMU, and of course to be in Bio. Now, i am smiling not because i'm still here BUT because i know that every little thing has been worth it. No matter how crappy or how beautiful, they all end up teaching me lessons. Things i'd never want to forget.

After the shoot, i found myself in music rehearsals.. thinking that here i am, i've done it. i'm doing it. being in a play, IVP of a Bio org, atenean senior, soon to be doctor. i've been living the dream... i never lost it. there have been failures, one too many for my standards. but i'm still here and it's just that i've had new dreams along the way and well, now they're working together.. the nerd, the party girl, the leader, the thespian, the doctor. ME. =) yep, it is worth it.

on things that have been

hellish two weeks.. and that's beyond academic requirements.. what pisses me off most is incompetence and blatant disregard for authority.. wanna know what i'm talking about? wait for my august 11 post. with the stress that goes with school, i didn't want to be an officer of an org i love just to be insulted to my face.. to top it all of they were unfounded insults. somehow at the back of my mind i'd wish they'd fail... but my actions..well our actions always end up speaking differently.. probably because we move with our minds, conscience and love for the org fused together in one direction.. and that is to do things right. but there are moments that we highly regret having made that decision.. looking forward, i hope you never win if you do run. and all these.. you'll learn on your own..

ON THE LIGHTER SIDE...

i'm in a play.. =) and that's all i'm going to say about that...