dreams.

here i go again with my emo posts.. and i was right, i knew i'm going to write lots of these since it's my last year in college, and that is if i pass all my subjects.. :p

we (Bio girls) had our group photo shoot this morning and right after that, cams said in the bathroom "That was fast, we just smiled and it was over" and i replied "just like college"... and honestly that wasn't true.. somehow i wish it was but NO. the past three years of my life were filled with the biggest up and down shifts ever.. some aren't even academically related. I remembering entering college with the biggest smile ever, and even though i still have that smile pasted on.. its meaning is far different, and i guess i like this smile better. As a freshie, i was just happy to be in college and to be in ADMU, and of course to be in Bio. Now, i am smiling not because i'm still here BUT because i know that every little thing has been worth it. No matter how crappy or how beautiful, they all end up teaching me lessons. Things i'd never want to forget.

After the shoot, i found myself in music rehearsals.. thinking that here i am, i've done it. i'm doing it. being in a play, IVP of a Bio org, atenean senior, soon to be doctor. i've been living the dream... i never lost it. there have been failures, one too many for my standards. but i'm still here and it's just that i've had new dreams along the way and well, now they're working together.. the nerd, the party girl, the leader, the thespian, the doctor. ME. =) yep, it is worth it.