words.

i remember out of exasperation and a lil exhaustion at home i got a little pissed and muttered angrily, "i'm never gonna cook again." yet last night i find myself in the kitchen experimenting with parmesan cheese, breading and pork chop :P another example would be how people wish it continues to rain while our death toll increases up to 100... apathy? maybe but it could also show that we don't really think about what we say. i guess that's how humans are... our strange species use words unwisely, without thinking of the implications or without meaning... animals have specific calls that mean that and only that... i never heard a mating call that meant otherwise..

i am very guilty of saying a lot of things without meaning it or wishing i never said it... all of us are. famous words would probably be:

thanks (oh not another mug/ picture frame OR i don't really need this)
uh yeah (whatever you're weird OR what? uh just say yeah)
i'm on my way (to the bathroom)
yaaah miss you too (why does this person miss me)
i'm over it (i can't stop thinking about it)
i love you (NOT... oh sh*t what did i just say?!)

so i figured from now on, whatever imma say i should think about. especially now that i should be all grown up, late realization yeah... but it's never too late to change.

anyway, off to work :D

paruparohan

from hannahrhymes to paruparohan. yep i changed my site name.

that's the plan. from the little girl to the butterfly haha. and butterflies amaze me from a simple caterpillar to a beautiful thing of nature! i have no clear explanation for now, i haven't slept or ate so this is me during bad mornings. impulsive and yet it works for the better.

my mom says i need to date.. she also says i need to exercise and sleep better. my year off's not so good haha. but imma change and fix me. imma sleep first. *yawn.

stuff to think about when you're up at 4 am downloading SATC

i like going through an old friend's facebook once they've added me.. it's nice to know where they are and how they've been.. if i miss them that much i post somethin on their wall to try and catch up, stuff like that... but a friend of mine, specifically my ex's sister has this whole fam thing on her facebook with icho, his girlfriend/wife i dunno anymore and their 2 kids... and it doesn't hurt my heart or anything it's just i wonder why i haven't progressed that much in the love department.. i know i say i enjoy being single, i guess i really do.. (ask me again after i've had much sleep). but now, 4 in the morning feeling fat and well fatter still, it's hard not to feel down and lonely (lonely, NOT alone..clearing that up).. it sure is weird thinking bout this after my fave couple just broke up and the fact that i just turned down a date... nights are annoyingly hard for me nowadays since i sleep in the day and i'm up and alone at night supposedly studying for the MCAT... and i end up with bad headaches and a crappy attitude.. *sigh... i need my body clock back so that i can EXERCISE, REVIEW and FEEL pretty again (feeling pretty and being pretty are two diff things, i AM pretty i just don't feel it LOL)... crushless once again, i no longer revel in idiotic yet romantic fantasies, and i guess that adds to the fat feeling and what not.. and probably the fact that i still have my period. and it's just really bad to be up at four in the morning with no one to talk to and worse no one to dream about.. maybe when i feel like my happy confident self again imma decide to say yes to that date, work my ass off to review and make myself feel pretty by exercising.. ugh i sooo abhor my period. and i miss ME.. and miss the day too.... it's hard living in the dark.. i'm no vampire. and i've started to blab.. *sigh. stop.

on a super unrelated note... can i just say, i love my bangs :P

random thoughts

remember that crush i had on a supposed gay guy (it's not even confirmed, maybe he isn't!!), i now know why i had it... the guy has abs, real washboard omygod to-die-for ABS! and no girl in her right mind can resist that. *sigh...drool.. LOL :D

oh and is it bad that while reading "Eat this Not That" i get hungry haha :) that's that, throwing diet and exercise out the window again! my parents are so gonna kill me :P

i feel quite chatty today...isn't it obvious? three blogs in a row. why is nobody online at 4 in the morning haha. stupid question :P

eat this... not that

reading an article my dad recommended (http://www.menshealth.com/eatthis/Secrets-of-All-Day-Weight-Loss/index.php) i found out that blueberry cheesecake is worth half the calories a chocolate cake has and that made my day :) tomorrow morning i will walk to banapple and buy myself a slice haha :P or maybe not. and another fun fact is that lasagna has less calories than eggplant parmigiana hahaha.. back to lasagna eating people :P seriously now i've been trying to fall in love with physics so that i'd enjoy every bit of my MCAT studying and so far it has worked.. i've actually read a lot of chapters now from an old college physics book :) and probably coz i had my recommendation letters signed just yesterday. that "upped" my confidence level and perseverance to study :) oh i did love visiting ADMU and the Bio dept is puuurrrrtty now hehe. but a lil quieter hahaha. anyway, i haven't started work, dunno what's up with that but the fact that i'm now "teacher hannah" is so coooooL haha. and i now blog like a teenage kid, what's up with this? it's like my brain's everywhere :D well maybe it is.. my transition phase has begun :) it's gonna be good. this year off's worth it :D

loving the song

Smother Me
The Used

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Surely you can take some comfort
Knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

Let me be the one who never leaves
You all alone
I hold my breath and lose the feeling
That I'm on my own
Hold me too tight stay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

When I'm alone time goes so slow
I need you here with me
and how my mistakes have made
Your heart break
Still I need you here with me
Baby I'm here

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

loving the quote

"Nothing prevents happiness like the memory of happiness." - Andre Gide

still chasing pavements

at a momentary standstill in life before everything rushes in again... i can now say i'm excited about working since it will be at The Learning Tree :) a place i'm very familiar with. i can't wait to find out what they have in store for me but for now all i know is that i'm a sub and that's fine by me. besides that imma buy my MCAT reviewers tomorrow and i've already reserved a test date (sept 13 PRAY for me). so things are going steady for me and this is it... the beginning of the rest of my life. gela's despedida (will miss you gela and will see yah next year woohoo hehe) was a wake up call to reality, the omygod college is over haha and we're all embarking on different paths that are all bound to cross one day... it's exciting.. and i can't wait for everything that will come my way :D

katinko is my new best friend

being back from Bicol means a whole lotta insect bites for me.. i've already "bathed" in Off lotion before sleeping but still i have them annoying insect bites... i know i shouldn't complain much coz others have it worse (za how are yours? hehe) but still i hate it. being back in Manila means my cough is back.. haaaay... and now i crave for all things Manila to me like outback's buffalo wings, Mcdo's french fries and caramel sundae, yellow cab's four cheese pizza, my wonderful bed, movies in eastwood and house tambays haha. i swear i'm never going to bicol again without tito Gas and with limited amount of money haha, i'm sure my friends agree :P anyway i'm just killing time 'til this download's done... damn i'm broke and can't watch narnia that sucks!!!! Last year i watched on the first day waaaaah... anyway i will stop dwelling and have happy thoughts like church dude as cyndee says haha :D i miss L2 and imma see you guys later.. as my favorite pamankin says, love love :) goodnight :D

save the rainforest :P