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so finally my post-MCAT results blog. (i've known my results for weeks now actually but i decided to give in to the ol' weakness and drink) I THOUGHT I'D NEVER LOOK AT MY LAPTOP AGAIN. oh poor bennie. AND I WAS SOOOO GONNA QUIT MED. but what's one test right?

OK so i went through a crappy phase again SINCE LIFE THREW ME LEMONS i GOT TEQUILA. and yeah helloooo reversed body clock and early morning dvd marathons of Friends.. SINCE I WANT TO HAVE MY OWN LOBSTER.

SERIOUSLY NOW, i know deep in my heart i'm no quitter. AND I SERIOUSLY BELIEVE IMMA GET A GOOD ENOUGH SCORE IN MY NMAT. HELLO.... BUT, if my NMAT score sucks imma reassess everything and see where it goes from there. so i'm LOST. SAD. and FAT. haha. but i know that SADNESS IS A WALL BETWEEN TWO GARDENS...

AND I SO CAN'T WAIT TO GET TO THAT GARDEN ON THE OTHER SIDE.

little kid in me

i can't wait to go to HK Disneyland and it's weird because i've already been to Disney in the US. BUT that was years ago. now, i'm tired of being a "grown-up" and i wanna relive my girlish fantasies of being a princess haha. and i can't wait. although i know a lot of "grown-up stuff" would come first like my MCAT scores, med applications etc... Disneyland is still the only thing in my head... i guess it releases the anxiety and makes me feel like that little girl who had no problems in the world except probably what her Barbie doll should wear next. Yeah, i was a girly girl with the butterfly clips, 8 barbie dolls, tons of stufftoys, a purple diary and a pink room... A lot of people would probably find that hard to imagine, even i do :) but i just miss that little girl in me, with the bright smile and big dreams.. now i admit i'm a bit jaded and i lack confidence and i don't trust that much.. i don't wonder what happened along the way and i don't want to change anything.. BUT going to Disney would probably remind me of that little girl in me, and maybe i'd remember to be sweeter and to smile more.. but i know i will never like pink again :)