toblerone

i ate a little of the to toblerone sir neil handed me.. i like to think of it as a christmas present with a friendly reminder.. so with every bite i reminded myself never to be late for his class again or any other class for that matter. and then reminded myself further to quit cramming and spacing out and that i should find focus for the remaining 8 weeks of my college life.. i still have loads of exams which equals loads of chances to catch up. so there, through toblerone i have my resolutions set for the next year. well at least for the first two months of 2008. =)

in the stillness of the night

...well not really. my brother's right beside me playing comp games so i can hear constant clicking and um game sounds.. haha. BUT to get to the point, i have to admit that although i work better and think better at night it's also where my worst moments happen. heartbreak, insecurities, crap. it all comes back at night. the most vulnerable moments of my life, what ifs included. i end up reading old blogs and feeling soooo different.. sometimes wishing i could go back, other times wishing that those things never happened. AND right now i'm in the middle of two lab reports but the effect of the "stillness" is still there. it's gonna be Christmas soon and i feel quite lonely.. weird. sad. and so unlike me. i miss .... i miss everything. can't wait for school to be over.

song of the moment

Hero
Boys Like Girls

It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
This is how I do
When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart
You want to get inside
Then you can get in line
But not this time

Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine

I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And it's so surreal
I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons
And I don't know why
You'd even try
But I won't lie

You caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
[ Hero lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

Pushing Daisies

Everyone wants stuff. We wake up everyday with a list of wishes a mile long and maybe we spend our lives trying to make those wishes come true, but just because we want them doesn't mean we need them to be happy.

in between things again

i'm blogging to get my creative juices flowing, well at least that's my excuse.. haha. i'm taking feature writing as an elective now so i got an article due tomorrow and though it's totally unrelated to my course i looove it.. a whole lot more love than i give to um let's say org chem.. and yeah i have a long test for that tomorrow. so guess what i'm doing? writing a paper or studying? well, the answer's neither! woohoo. weirdo. so not cool. see i got new games for my laptop and i just realized it was one big MISTAKE. argh. but i'm not complaining. hahaha. so when i get stuck and decide to take a break i go to my laptop and play. and when i feel like working (whenever that would happen) i sit in front of my dad's laptop. and since 9pm, this is the first time i sat in front of my dad's laptop. very good. haha. still the professional procrastinator. besides that i've got so much things to do that maybe i just love to dwell in that surreal break, 'cause i may never get one after Christmas. and by then i'll need to exercise. yes i digress...