think about it (edited)

faced with the reality that there is a probability that i could leave the Philippines, leaves me excited and actually wishing for it...
weird..true..because last i checked, i was deeply rooted in place..right here, in my place..
but then i realized, my place could be anywhere in the world as long as you feel your best and think that you're living each day to the full..when your drive is full throttle and your inspirations are bursting everyday..sadly, i lost that here..and i'm no longer in the mood to look for it.. which is why i want a fresh start, something new and extremely different...

and i didn't tell anybody yet..i just say it like it's not gonna happen...
but honestly, if things fall in place by apriL..
if my mom gets accepted as a teacher and is asked to start by september this year
i actually volunteered to be the one to accompany her
my dad and brothers would only follow the year after..
i simply said "tell me by april how it goes so i can immediately get my transcript..as soon as my papers are fixed, i'll get on a plane and go.."
just like that..

think about it, would it be that easy?
just to get up and go..pack the bags, board a plane, and then look back..
no..not easy at all
but no matter how hard it would be, whether or not it'd be this year or the next or whenever it may happen..
i am no longer forced to do it..
i actually found reasons for this short uprooting to be a helpful and hopefully wonderful experinece...
i hope things fall in place...i need that to happen...
and maybe when i get back home.. (6-10 years from now)
things will be far better...