kopiroti

i was chillin' at kopiroti the other night, studying for a chem chapter test, and moping about still being here in this place that i really wanna get out of.. i go on ranting and ranting to my dad or mom that i wanna leave, breathe some fresh air, blah blah..sometimes i just hate the country.

but then again, i never wanted to leave... so what's leading me to do it now? is it an escape or did i just allow myself to get lost in decisions i make alone.

in times that i turn my back on God, it's simply amazing how He can just reach out and guide you back. and admitting the fact that i got lost again removes all those prickly thorns that seem to be bothering my brain, and worse my heart.

so one good reason..that's all i asked in my heart of hearts. one mind-changing reason that would give me strength to stay for a little more. what i saw? what i heard? what God gave? hope. a heartwarming virtue that i seemed to have lost along the way. hope. i lost hope in every person in this heartbreaking complicated world, but i got it back through a child's unmistakeable joy.

you see there were two boys selling sampaguitas outside the coffee shop i was in, and one rich looking guy with a bmw bought some sampaguita necklaces and gave the boys an extra gift (it was a yoyo) that he got from the trunk of his car. amazing. and i thought people no longer shared and i thought people no longer cared.

boy was i wrong. there's always hope. hope in the eyes of a child that he may be allowed to feel like a real child again. hope in the eyes of a man, that he continuously becomes a blessing to those who need it. and hope in the eyes of a girl, 'cause if God's with you, there'd never be an impossible path.