Thursday, December 17, 2009

there are still days when i question my being here

my year off stemmed from big crazy ass dreams of leaving. and i still wonder if i took things seriously, would i be in this place right now? maybe not. as i tried to clear my thoughts for my management paper and report for tomorrow i stumbled upon a friend's blog.. who had bigger dreams than mine and now he's somewhere in Europe, living the adventure he wanted his life to be. i know i said months back that staying here is the adventure i want. but there are still days that i wish i'm somewhere else. don't get me wrong, new things have happened by staying and they are great.. one "thing" i particularly love the most ;)

it's just that sometimes, i miss not knowing. i miss big crazy ass dreams. taking leaps. living one day at a time. exploring the unfamiliar. i miss the adventures i decided not to take. and even if i say there are no regrets. i still miss what i will never have.

BUT still...i know i'm living my dream. i just have to persevere, that's all.

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