anxiety attack

it's hard to be unsure... i remember saying that my worst fear was of the unknown.. i have just been so busy lately that i forgot i'm graduating and school's over in 2 weeks (if i pass chem that is). to top it all off, i'm not gonna be taking up Med yet... i need a breather... i dived before getting a good amount of air so gotta resurface first.. haha. seriously, i love Bio, i love school (well sometimes, i hate chem), and i can't wait to graduate... but i'm hella scared of what's next.. sometimes i wish i just took the NMAT..but of course with plans to leave the country everything gets so complicated.. it's worse when i try and sit alone at night and cry out to God, HELP! haha. sooo i've been burying myself lately in school work and org stuff which is probably why my facebook has 200+ application invites.. haha... i will get to that in March :D and i remember telling myself that this will be my year of risks and of taking plunges.. well so far, not so good.. haha.. i'm even scared of little dips.. it's a good thing i've got God with me.. i did need that soul rest a while ago, oh God...help.. seriously...