what again?

so i say to myself, shut up and listen...

and i've been saying that too many times nowadays and i forget what i have to hear..i'm back to losing my sense of direction.. and i question the "who am i's" again... so now i have a new batch of questions.. namely: what's next? am i still right? what now? am i happy?

oh well God, i know you're still there.. and i find myself here again.. LOST.. and i abhor this feeling.. i'm the type of person who plans the major stuff and the minor ones come spontaneously.. but now i've lost my majors too.. grrr.. so now what? i was thinking of transferring to UST, taking up Journalism.. then get really high grades then transfer to UP.. and what if i want to do that just to prove that i'm really good at something.. that it's so not me to be under probation.. but then again, what do i really wanna be? there are so many things on my mind that it's so hard not to lose focus.. and that's the thing i need...

sooo, pray for me.. for complete peace.. i need that.. and i'm close to going crazy.. and i know slowly this messed up storm will come to an end.. i just have to listen.. and to trust God.. and whatever leaps i need to take, i'm all ears...