envy...

one of hollywood's seven deadliest sins.. and at the moment i'm guilty of it. :( see there's this girl, who's nice actually, an acquaintance and a multiply friend haha. see that narrows it down. anyway, she's pretty, down to earth, cute and an old crush likes/liked her (idunno anymore) and she has this job which i used to like (*hint: something gelo and i auditioned for haha.) oh and she's lucky and sometimes i wish, especially now that i'm not doing anything serious, that i just took comm followed an easy path and became a vj/dj or whatever. i've been hosting since i was kid. i've been good at it, i can be better with practice and i don't look so bad right? haha. i was in that world already, i worked for candymag!! waaah. anyway, here goes my number 1 question again, how did i ever end up in bio? haha. ok so i dream of becoming a doctor... and there are no shortcuts to that. and i know deep in my heart if i did decide to take comm, i'd end up wishing i was a doctor instead haha. SO i HOPE that in 5-6 years time with an MD after my name that I NO LONGER WISH i had an easier dream instead. actually i don't hope, i think i KNOW that when my little girl dreams are fulfilled, there'd be no regrets... and then imma be thinking about dating and boyfriends again haha.