x-files

oh by the way! i stumbled upon the x-files.. that's what i'll call them now haha. it's this box filled with letters from my ex (booo), yeah i still have that.. weird. anyway, it felt good looking back with no feelings whatsoever. (except probably nausea haha) reading those letters affirmed my decision of staying single (for now) and being really cautious about commitment. the last letter i read was after we broke up, and i guess there were still inklings of us getting back together then, but its been 3 years and hell nooooo. i guess we've both learned our lesson of going too fast and yeah fools do rush in... but i don't regret it, that experience made me who i am now (a much better and less emotional person, i mean less gullible). "love" was different back then and i reintroduced myself to a different han, one i've turned my back on. and yeah i know i'm never going back. oh the box? i'm keeping it.. it serves as a good reminder. BUT i'll throw it as soon as i find that person with whom i'm willing to take the risk with again OR if we move to the states, haha, whichever comes first.