letters to me

i couldn't sleep last night. it's been a long time since i last slept in my room and it took a while for me to get used to it again. while lying on my bed, i decided to get myself tired by reorganizing my long untouched drawers... little did i know that i'd get all sentimental in a few minutes. you see, my last drawer was filled to the brim with letters. letters coming from different people during different times of my life. i even had one from 4th grade where i transferred school unexpectedly. some letters where from people i no longer had contact with, some with people who've grown to become an "x-friend" while some are still close friends of mine. old letters showed signs of immaturity, of foolishness, of really stupid mistakes.. others showed me and my kada growing up and learning lots of things the hard way. some letters i'd rather not look back to, the ones i loved rereading were letters of reconciliation between me and my bestfriend.

and underneath a lot of letters, i saw a few letters from me. hahahaha.. yeah, i guess i wrote to myself. and words were so different then. and life looks so different now. a lot of things have ended on new perspectives.

when i wrote those letters, i would never have expected to be where i am now. i guess when all of us wrote letters to each other then, we all had a different take on how our paths would end up. sometimes we believed that things would stay the same. right at those moments when we wrote the letters, together was all we knew. now i miss a lot of people, some i don't regret not seeing anymore, others i wish i never wrote letters to. harsh but true.

but once in a while, i'd look back on those letters and remind myself of the silly and really different moments that my life passed through. and in a way, makes me thankful that i'm here now.