this is for keeps

sipping coffee on a late weekday night
feeling cold and holding my cup tight
remembering how you waved through your car window
how i hated our goodbyes
and yet all that's left now is sweet sorrow

i'd trade this coldness now for one of them sweet goodbyes
i'd rather have one last goodnight kiss than tears running down my eyes
could it have been better if i held your hand tighter?
was i too harsh? was i too much of a fighter?

am i a fool to keep dreaming of yesterday?
was it stupid to keep all my feelings at bay?
and tomorrow if i see you, all i can give is a smile
'cause that's all you want, and that's all you give back

no matter how many more pieces i find of my broken heart
i can't help but love finding the pieces where you played a part
crazy, i know this is not me
i'm no longer the hannah i wanted people to see

here you go, my weakness and fear laid all out
falling in love and falling apart
i am most vulnerable when i'm near you
'cause i hang on to every word and every little thing you do

but this is the last you'll hear of it
the last of my 'it's too late' moments
life has always taught me to let go and move on
it's time i applied my life's lessons to you